有时

有时，我在欺骗自己说，
我并没有很想要，
我没有很想要，
其实，
内心深处的渴望，
强得让我感到惧怕。

有时，我在告诉自己说，
做好自己的本分就好了，
不要去祈求太多，
没有期望就没有失望。

有时，我在告诫自己说，
做人不要太贪心，
要满足于现在拥有的，
不要人心不足蛇吞象。

有时，我在期盼，
期待奇迹发生在我身上，
虽然知道，
奇迹这事是不可能发生，
但期待一下又何妨？

碎碎唸

很想很想写一篇部落格
想了很久
连日来的生活
似乎苦不堪言
没什么好说的

或许
是坏消息太多
又或许
是心情太忧郁

无奈

First Day of Class

After three whole months of holidays, finally semester commence on today. As usual, I came back Miri early. Overnight at Erica and Jenny there for three nights, hanging around in Miri city area, crapping a lot and all these officially declared my holidays ended.

Back to topic anyway. Curtin University had just finished built a new building and School of Business will be moving to the new building. Okay, since I never explore the new building before the semester start, better grab a chance to have a look before my class. I arrived fifteen minutes earlier, the door of my classroom still locked. Tried to walk around, many students were in fact already there standing waiting for their class. A girl that looked extremely like my primary school ex-classmate came and asked me about her unit. Her class started at 8am yet none of her classmate arrived.

She made me wonder how many of my classmates arrived already. 8.23am, the classroom door still lock, went to ask security open the door for me. IT department technicians only enter to set up all things by that time. 8.30am now, enter the class punctually.

Sigh... I am the only one inside. Having bad feeling now, really bad. When the lecturer enter the class, I knew this is going to happen! I AM HAVING LECTURE MYSELF, ALONE! FOR TWO HOURS SOME MORE! The lecturer is nice, friendly teaching way, and keep saying that he won't going to spoon feed us. I was so under pressure when he asked me questions one after one. I admit, I did not do any preparation before the class. Come on, is only the first day of class, can not expect so much from students, right? A bad start for my day one of this semester. The lecturer even telling me to have a prepare that maybe we are going to have one to one for the whole semester! *faint*

Overall of the day was not too bad, I think. Meeting many old friends but do not have many chances to chit chat around. Anyway, its good for meeting you all back.

Conclusion for first day of class: horrible and exhausted.

Glad to have you in life

I still remember that first year first semester of my Economics classes

You are the first who gave me a big bright sweet smile

We study together, helping each other

Maybe we do not consider as friends

Maybe for you, I am just your classmate, or even nothing at all

But, we smiles to each other everytime we meet around in the campus

And now, receiving news that you passed away already was shocking me

I do not know how to show my consolidation

Just want to let you know that

I am glad having you in my life path

Although it may just a while

RIP Kee Ying

I bought it, finally

Its been a long time already I craving for a camera. The wants of capture more and more nice pictures keep urging me to get myself a nice camera. Since I am a big girl now, I don't really ask my parents to buy expensive stuff like mobile phone and camera for me. Thus, it took me ages to save money to buy all those.

After few rounds of survey, I am struggled with which brand and which model of camera I want. I decided to buy Canon IXUS 80 IS at first, but plan changed when I reached the shop. Canon IXUS 870 IS and Nikon S60 caught my sights. Both of them are just great and I like them so much. Yet, both cameras were over budget for me. It took me times to decide again.

And finally, baby, come to me~~


I bought it home~~ Although I need to eat breads and biscuits to save back those overspent amount.

烟火

如果

有尝试过

站在烟火正下方欣赏烟火

那么

就能感受到

那一瞬间的

灿烂

Camera, Mobile Phone and Vacations

Yeap, I wanted and needed so much to buy and to have all those three things mention in the title!

~A camera for me to capture all nice memories that I will have in this last semester of school.
~A mobile phone as my old one has been into crazy mode and requesting me to get myself a new one.
~Vacations wanted before I go to work.

Arghhhhhhh..... I wanted and needed three of them so much, yet I can only choose one of them since limited budget. Headache now~ How to choose? A friend suggested me to get what I needed most first. However, all three of them are so attempting and I can really resist them. Tried to think again and again, all three can be needs and wants from different viewpoints.

No decision made until now.