Sick Holiday~~

I am sick. First stomah ache, then flu, and now, my ear pains. I don't know is it because I am too stress recently and then when I am relax a bit, all diseasesss come and tackle me or what. Honestly, I am too tired and weak now. Everyday sleep for couple of times, rest more, more, and more. Kinda feeling guilty as I promise mummy to accompany her, and planning to help her to do some house work, however, now end up need her to take care me back, haiz... The only thing I am glad is that I really spent my times with my family.

Talking back to my studies, planning to do some revision, end up doing nothing also. My sick really disturbing me, I can't do much things because of that. I just feel that I am too weak.

Think of many things when I am in KK this time. May be I have already make some decisions for the future and some certain issues, however, I am still feeling uncertain, that feeling keep on haunting me. I feel unsecure, all the time. I still pretend to be strong as usual, I think no one realised that I am in problems now, till now... I think I used to be pretending that I am strong, till myself also have the thinking that I am strong, without thinking that this is only the fake personality I am having now...